selamat tinggal putih abu SMA ku. selamat datang 17 tahunku

assalamu'alaikum!

hello my readers. i'm back!! long time no see this alay blog. it's been 8 months since i wrote my last post. guess what? last 12nd april is my birthday. yes, i'm seventeen now. and it's mean i'm old and have to become more mature. i don't know what should i do on my 17th birthday. let's throwback

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D-day

i woke up earlier because i still must to go on with national examination, and today is the last day. then i realized it was my birth-day. and i just like, "ada yang ngasih kue kaga ya" because i always giving a cake to people around. even we are not really close friends, i think. but i erased my mind for that thing. because when you are expect too high, you will get down too sick.

i prepared myself to go to school. wore my uniform, drunk my milk, and ate my breakfast. and then i heard a voice from my little kitchen, that voice is came from the stove. and i asked my sister, "ngapain kakak ila?" with my innocent face. then i just realized that she want to give me a surprise but i ruined that-_- ok. epicfailed. HAHA

"yaaahhh sana sana!," i said so sorry, i ruined her surprised and i told her just doing that and pretend like i don't know about it. WKWK. and anyway because the stove didn't want to work, so i gave her matches to turn on the candle. and tadaaaaaa! this is my alay face in the morning on my 17th birthday!

my sister only bought "7" candle without "1"
she said that "1" is sold out. lol, so i added my one finger!
thank you sister! u'r da best! 

after take a picture and blew up the candle, i went to school. at the school, i just thought that no one will remember my birthday, lagi pula "who's person that cares about someone birthday in the important day like National Exam????" no one. ok.

i went to the class and met my friends to took their money. noooo i'm not that lintah daratt yang alay or tukang palak. it is for our graduation payment by the way. after all i wrote my friends payment, then my friend, Alda, call me with her smile on her chubby face. "fathaaann~~" "kenapa da?" i just trying not to know what was she meant. although i already know what she meant wkwk.
then i met my several friends in the class, and yessss. it's true, no one remember except Alda. lol, i love you aldaa wkwkwk

after that, the bell was rang. so everyone must went to the exam room. sampai di ruang ujian, kita masuk lalu duduk ditempat masing-masing. after that, (again) Alda who is sit in front of me, she call me with that smile. "fathan...~" dia sambil senyum senyum jail gitu. wkwk. "kenapa daa..." "hihi saengil chukhahae~" lol, thankyou alda. u still remember my birthday

and yap. after 2 hours, we finished our exam! yeay. then my chairmate came to me, "fathaaann maaf shafyra lupaaa. selamat ulang tahun yaaa!!" then others like, "ih pitin ulang tahun ngga bilang-bilang!!!" and Viana, my other friend, she yelled at me, "fathaaannn nanti kita jadi ke rooftop cibinong city mall kan?? bakar bakar?"' looool cibinong city mall is an elite mall that near my house. she made fun of it. then my teacher gave me a hand to say happy birthday. terima kasih ibu simag! yang walaupun ngga ngajar anak ips. hehe. after that, we came out from exam's room, then my friends singing happy birthday to me. huhuhu i'm so happy even just like that. abis itu semacam lebaran gitu dah, semuanya pada nyalamin ngucapin selamat. then, my extracurricular friend's ngucapin ulang tahun juga. Reynaldi, Hannadwita, i just say to Hanna that "aku pikir semua orang melupakan hari ulang tahunku..." lol haha it heard so sad ya? feels like:

LOL HAHA
pardon my face

and yap after that i went to masjid to Dugem. "Dhuha gembira" wkwkwk. i thought everyone's is went home, and no one will give me a surprise. and yes it is.NO ONE. WKKWK. poor me.

and soooo after that i went to home. because i really wanna go home. no no, not because my family will surprise me either, it's because of this:

TEMBAK AKU MAZZ!!

yeayyy Descendants of The Sun!! i'm dying so hard to wait this day. because i prohibit myself to watch any kind of korean drama before National Examination is end. and D-day is come! i lock my room's door, opened my laptop and boom! watching this drama all day. yeayyy what a happy 17th birthday you know. spent my time with this thing and this cool guy named, Song Joong Ki. after so looooong stucked on my school book, i just want to forget all about the world for awhile!

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and because i didn't receive any gifts, soooo i kinda thanks to my self who is bought me an album!! lol, i give a gift to my self(?) yeayyyy!!! it's Born to Beat 8th mini album, Remember That!

wohoooo!

they are the best boyband i've ever know after SM*SH btw~

lol hahaaa, i dont know why that i got myself in to this fan-girl-ing thing. yap. it's "Born to Beat". they are such a WONDERFUL BOYBAND IN THE WORLD ASFDHDSJHDKL. they are so multi talented!! and sooo handsome pastinya lhaaa. huhu ngga pernah kebayang bakal jatuh terlalu dalam seperti ini. ngga hanya multi talenta, mereka juga lucu-lucu banget orangnya. kovlak banget seriusaaann huhu mana ada artis yang alay dan gajaim kayak gini:

pardon their face.
they are so weird but it's okay
i like them. 

lol haha, i jjinjja gomawoooo to them because they makes me laugh everyday! and falling everyday! if you fall in love with this group, u really really cannot get out. they r so funny huhu i dunno why i can't stand it anymoreeee,, they are really hard workers btw. See you soon yaa!! my next dream is to meet this 7 people. minta tanda tangan, terus foto bareng dengan pose aneh lol. please don't be change:') pray for me HAHA<3

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after one week holiday, school is over. and i started my day to go to my course that i must to go. yap, study to get in to collage. day to day i have pass. and my another heart-attack has come. it's my national exam result. didn't expect too much of this thing. so i just let God do the rest. and yaaap. it's not so good, but it wasn't that bad result. i think? soooo ya syukuri aja lha. kalau belum bagus, ya berarti belum maksimal. atau yaa, memang Tuhan sudah menempatkan hasilnya segitu. yak, yasudahlah.

yuhuuu, setelah hasil UN keluar, gue hanya pasrah dengan hasil undangan PTN yang memang tak boleh terlalu diharapkan itu. gue hanya bener-bener minta yang terbaik ke Allah. karena yang kita pikir itu baik, belum tentu baik dimata Tuhan. i always pray, i must to be that person. orang yang mempunyai hati yang benar-benar ikhlas. Ikhlas dengan situasi apapun, ikhlas menerima apapun. dan yang penting, percaya bahwa semua yang terjadi adalah yang terbaik buat dirinya.

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AND D-DAY pengumuman undangan pun tiba. bahkan dipercepat sehari untuk di umumkan di websitenya. huhu i feel like, yah yaudahlah. please just let it goooo. nothing to worry about. masih banyak jalan lain. and so on so on. dan di tempat les, semua orang be like, "please i don't want to go to courseeee, because it's d day." yappp tempat les lumayan sepi, ngga kayak biasanya. dan pada akhirnya, pengumuman pun tiba. anak kelas lain pada teriak teriak sampai nangis nangis karena di terima. ada juga yang cuman duduk terdiam karena ngga diterima. gue sama temen-temen ngga berani buat membuka websitenya. we're too afraid but we're too curious. then finally my friend, Dea, she dare herself to open her result. and tadaaaa, she's so lucky! she got in to collage that she want. si Dea bener bener langsung teriak dan nangis lalu lemas. bener- bener ngga nyangka kalau dia bakal lolos ke jaket kuning. and then temen-temen gue pada nyuruh gue buat buka hasil gue. noooo, i'm so afraid btw. i told to them that i just wanna go home, and open it in the home. because i will crying so hard no matter what.

so i went to home. but i'm too curious. i can't stand it anymore. so in the angkot, i opened the website, and BOOM! I'M CRYING SO HARD. just like i don't know, my hand and my body just like shake itself(?) and i feel likeee, yaAllah ini benerannn?!!! ini ngga mimpi kaaan?!!! buru-buru gue kasih tau di grup keluarga gue, dengan tangan gemeteran dan ngga tau harus gimana lagi. cuman bisa nangis dan nunggu ditelfon sama keluarga. huhuhu untungnya di angkot sepi-_- gue pun menangis sejadi jadinya. entahlah apa yang akan abang supir angkot katakan.

after that, my dad called me, and i just crying so hardd. he give me a congrats, and also my grandma and grandpa. omg daddy! i'm home! aku akan pulang pa, setelah nge kost 3 tahun. my dad work so hard, to pay my cost, give me so many ongkos transport, uang jajan, dan lain lain. udah gitu bokap selalu nganterin gue jam 4/5 pagi setiap hari senin. ngantuk-ngantuk cuman buat nganterin gue ke stasiun. huhuhu feeling like: DADDYYYY THANKYOU SO MUCHHHH semua pengorbanan bokap ngga sia-sia. huhuhu. and my MOMMYYY. feels like, "Bundaaaa, sekarang bunda akan ada yang bantuin di rumah. biar ngga capek urus-urus rumah sendirian." huhuhu i really really be grateful to Allah who has give me this  chance to feel a great thing.

after that, my sister called me and said congratulations..and she said don't forget to sujud syukur when you back to home. then when i'm home(in my kost) my mom called me and she cryin so hard on the phone. she said she was really happy and be grateful that i have a chance to get in to collage.

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one day after the announcement, my school held an graduation. huhuhu selamat tinggal putih abu-abu. selamat tinggal kenangan-kenangan indah, alay, lebay, kocaq, sedih, ngakak, dan semua kegiatan yang bener-bener bakal dikangenin.

jalan jalan alay

kelas 10 yang heboh dan alay tapi aku love foso

kelas yang gabut

bye bye kutem(kuda templok)

ibu-ibu pejuang PTN
aku sayang kalian

semoga kita semua bisa bertemu disaat udah sukses dan berhasil semuanya ya! aamiin:)

selamat tinggal putih abu-abu ku<3 

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yapp. i really really grateful that one of my many dreams is becomes real. it makes me cheer up and feel like, "the power of dreams is really exist. i should dream more!"

yeah it's my seventeen's story. my best present that God gave to me. :)

wassalamu'alaikum!! oya, pardon for my bad english grammar. see ya on the next post!

Liburan Akhir Tahun ke Bandung 2015

Assalamu'alaikum teman-teman tercintahh!!
Kali ini gue akan cerita tentang liburan 3 hari 2 malam gue waktu ke Bandung. Tepatnya pada tanggal 24-26 Desember 2015.
24 Desember 2015
Bermula pada saat pagi-pagi buta. Gue dibangunkan oleh sesosok berambut panjang dan bergelombang yang biasanya gue tebengi tempat tidurnya. "Dek!! Banguuun dek!!" gue pun kaget lantaran melihat sesosok wanita samar-samar dikegelapan. Gue kira siape, ternyata dia adalah Kak Aya. Kakak gue. Gue pun setengah sadar mencoba untuk membuka mata gue ini yang baru saja istirahat beberapa jam. (Yap, semua ini karena semalaman gue mencari baju untuk dibawa ke trip ini sampai lewat setengah 1 malam, gue masih mencari baju gue yang padahal itu itu aja.) Sesaat kakak gue manggil gue untuk bangun, gue pun hanya guling-guling lalu tidur lagi. Tapi kemudian kakak gue terus berdendang untuk membangunkan gue yang super-sulit-dibangunkan. Dan pada akhirnya guepun bangun lalu bergegas untuk ke kamar mandi.
Usai mandi, gue sholat shubuh lalu gue melihat nyokap dan mba yang masih mempersiapkan makanan yang ada dari dapur.
Selagi semua bersiap-siap dengan santai, Nyokap pun bilang sambil mengeluarkan nada agak tinggi, "Ayo cepetan-cepetan! nanti kalau kesiangan macet." lalu Bokap pun menyaut, "Ya sabar bunda.. macet itu adalah sebagian dari liburan. Ya kalau pun gak macet, namanya bukan libur dong." Gue dan kakak-kakak hanya tertawa saja mendengar Bunda dan Papa bercuap.
Sekitar jam 6an kami semua naik ke mobil dan meninggalkan si Milo, kucing kami. Sebenernya agak ngga tega sih, soalnya stok makanan dia habis, dan kita akan pergi 3 hari. Kami hanya berdoa supaya ketika kami pulang, kami ngga akan melihat seekor kucing tergeletak tak berdaya. Naudzubillahimindzalik.
Kemudian si mobil pun melaju ke arah tol cawang. Muka kita masih bahagia dan tak berfikiran akan macet yang berkepanjangan. DAN KEMUDIAN....Sampai di puteran cawang, arah mau masuk ke tol, we are stuck on it. BENER-BENER para mobil semuanya ngga bisa jalan. 1 jam kemudian....jalan cuman beberapa centi. Akhirnya gue pun tertidur karna kelamaan mobilnya ngga jalan-jalan. 1 jam kemudian gue pun bangun. DAN MASIH DI TEMPAT YANG SAMA. wkwkwk, lalu terdengar dari cuap-cuap penyiar radio, bahwa Tol Cikampek macet parah dan ngga bisa gerak. Kami pun hanya bisa tertawa-tawa menyedihkan didalam mobil. 1 jam kemudian, masih beberapa meter dari tempat yang sama. Dan kemudian terlihat banyak orang yang turun dari mobil dan bus mereka. Berlari-lari kecil ke arah tebing di sisi kiri jalanan. Kami pun bingung kenapa orang berbondong-bondong buat turun dari kendaraan mereka. Entah ibu-ibu maupun bapak-bapak. Dan jengjenggg....ternyata mereka semua ngapain? yap, buang air kecil.
Kita semua pun berkomentar, "yaampuun..pada ngga tahan semuanya kali ya. sangking kelamaan." yang paling berkoar-koar adalah bokap. Dannnnn you know guysss, beberapa menit kemudian. Bokap turun dengan santainya dan membawa botol minumnya. WAHAHA. Bokap pun ikutan ngga tahan untuk buang air kecil. Dan ketika bokap lagi ketebing, mobil depan kami pun jalan! wkwk semua panik dan akhirnya kakak gue pun ambil alih, Kak Ila. Kakak gue pun mencoba untuk mengendarai mobil dengan perlahan. Walaupun agak tersendat, lantaran dia udah lama ngga nyetir mobil. Nyokap pun heboh karena nyetirnya kakak gue bisa dibilang belum terlalu lancar. Ngga lama agak berjalan sedikit dari tempat sebelumnya, bokap pun akhirnya balik dari tebing tempat pembuangan air kecil itu. Dan masuk mobil lalu duduk disamping gue. Nyokap pun marah-marah karena bokap kelamaan buang air kecil dengan terlalu santai. WKWK. kebiasaan emang bokap. Akhirnya ngga lama kemudian, karena nyokap takut kalau kakak gue yang nyetir, bokap pun disuruh untuk kembali menyetir mobil kami. To be continued.